FALLING ON A DEEP WELL

Ever since Im longing for acceptance, love, and happiness in life like anyone else... Do you know what is the feeling of growing up with nothing? as in nothing...? Family,friends,special some one? As in no one cares about you. Then trying to find yourself thingking what is your purpose in life? Then you started to hate yourself because of the feeling of rejection to be happy? But all of the sudden you started to love yourself just to feel taht someone still need you?